Fool (Catherine)

Her hands were raw

Almost bleeding

There were lashes

On her soul

And she was finally half out the door

 

But maybe he needed fixing . . . saving

Maybe . . .  just a little more time

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Goodbye (Catherine)

 

You keep on leaving and coming back again

Like I was a book on the shelf you always forgot to read

 

But I’m not like you

 

I’ve read all your chapters

Run my hand lovingly over your pages

Memorized every line

 

Don’t wait for me

 

I’m not coming back

 

Confessions (Catherine)

Stop overthinking

It doesn’t have to be perfect

 

There need not be fireworks nor violins in the background

You don’t need to be poetic

Or all dressed up

 

Stop waiting for the right moment

 

Just walk right up

Look into her eyes

And tell her

Mistakes (Catherine)

 

No, they do not define you

As much and as strongly people might insist otherwise

Let me tell you, they do not

 

You need not explain or

Go down on your knees nor

Plead

 

Your debts are paid

 

Remove those shackles

Forgive yourself

Live

Doors (Catherine)

 

You say I never showed you

That I never bared my soul

You were always on the outside

 

I guess you never knew me

You see there are doors to me I don’t open

Yet I let you in

 

He always met me

In that glorious way of his

 

Midnight blue eyes sparkling

Arms open wide

That secret half smile

 

I stood there

And remembered

 

But then he turned around

His eyes blank

Arms clenched at his sides

 

And in that split-second

I knew

He was no longer mine

 

Reality (Catherine)

 

Nights are the hardest

They say

 

Big empty bed

A billion thoughts

A trillion monologues

 

But I find it harder

Waking up

Realizing it was not a dream

Knowing full well

This will not go away

Red (Catherine)

 

I remember how you painted
Bold strokes, vivid colors
Fierce green eyes
That fire in your soul

You loved the same way
Consuming
Passionate

You were so much more
They just could not do it

 

Shove you into that tiny white box
Hold your strings

 

You were much too different, much too brave
They just could not understand

It’s no wonder they never knew you

They only ever saw you in black and white

You were neither

Questions (Catherine)

“Why did you run away? Was I not enough?”

You were so much more that I was afraid you would fill me to overflowing. I was so soaked up with fear I just could not take in that kind of happiness, that much love.

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“Are you sorry we met?”

Only sorry I could not stay, only sorry this was wrong.

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“I have not seen you cry. Why?”

I like keeping things in and silence. I did that every day. Until even I could not hear it even if I tried.

 

 

Standstill (Catherine)

I have always wanted to

But you never let me

Get through to you

 

Touch your blunt angles

Read your mind

 

But when we kissed

Your eyes told me

What you could not

 

And for a moment

I could fight your demons

 

For a moment

You were mine