Red (Catherine)

red

 

I remember how you painted
Bold strokes, vivid colors
Fierce green eyes
That fire in your soul

You loved the same way
Consuming
Passionate

You were so much more
They just could not do it

 

Shove you into that tiny white box
Hold your strings

 

You were much too different, much too brave
They just could not understand

It’s no wonder they never knew you

They only ever saw you in black and white

You were neither

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Questions (Catherine)

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“Why did you run away? Was I not enough?”

You were so much more that I was afraid you would fill me to overflowing. I was so soaked up with fear I just could not take in that kind of happiness, that much love.

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“Are you sorry we met?”

Only sorry I could not stay, only sorry this was wrong.

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“I have not seen you cry. Why?”

I like keeping things in and silence. I did that every day. Until even I could not hear it even if I tried.

 

 

Never

 

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I don’t wanna miss you

 

No, not like this . . .

Not in any way . . .

 

But I do

 

I find I could no longer hide

no longer bury this at the back of my mind

It haunts me still

the promises almost kept

 

It haunts me

as if I could do something . . .

as if I were able . . .

 

But I am not

 

You cannot

be with me

 

Not now . . .

Not ever . . .

 

I know that now

As I blink my eyes

and tell myself not to cry