Red (Catherine)



I remember how you painted
Bold strokes, vivid colors
Fierce green eyes
That fire in your soul

You loved the same way

You were so much more
They just could not do it


Shove you into that tiny white box
Hold your strings


You were much too different, much too brave
They just could not understand

It’s no wonder they never knew you

They only ever saw you in black and white

You were neither


Questions (Catherine)


“Why did you run away? Was I not enough?”

You were so much more that I was afraid you would fill me to overflowing. I was so soaked up with fear I just could not take in that kind of happiness, that much love.


“Are you sorry we met?”

Only sorry I could not stay, only sorry this was wrong.


“I have not seen you cry. Why?”

I like keeping things in and silence. I did that every day. Until even I could not hear it even if I tried.






I don’t wanna miss you


No, not like this . . .

Not in any way . . .


But I do


I find I could no longer hide

no longer bury this at the back of my mind

It haunts me still

the promises almost kept


It haunts me

as if I could do something . . .

as if I were able . . .


But I am not


You cannot

be with me


Not now . . .

Not ever . . .


I know that now

As I blink my eyes

and tell myself not to cry